shady

I had her since she was a kitten, she was my first “baby”,
I got her when I turned 18 when I was in college
and had her before I met my husband and had my kids.
She went with me everywhere, slept with me every night
either curled up at my feet, on my pillow or under the covers next to me.
She was the sweetest little cat, she didn’t like many other people,
really only trusted me, had always been just a bit skittish of people,
but never with me.
She had a purr so load and fierce, it melted my heart.
And she would “talk” to me, only me when we were alone.
I don’t think other people, including my family, ever heard her meow.
She was diagnosed with mammary gland cancer over a year ago,
and she underwent two surgeries and in the end she did beat it.
It was another cancer called squamish cell carcinoma that finally took her away from me.
Part of her tongue fell out and I was syringe feeding her for over a month,
until she could no longer keep the food down, and her little body was melting away.
She got down to 5 lbs, I then had to put her to sleep, and it was the most difficult thing I have had to do.
I stayed with her until she was gone and prayed over her once she had left this body,
I know I did what I did out of love and I know she is now without pain.
I have her ashes in an urn on my dresser right next to my bed, with a little framed picture of her on top of it.
I also have a collage of pictures framed in the hallway. She is missed very much.
Her dates are 5/4/93 – 5/9/06, she was 13 when she passed away.
My personal words to her are these,
"Thank you Shady for your unconditional love, for you have taught me how love works.
I miss you everyday but I hold unto the memories we have made and ponder them in my heart.
I am grateful for the years we had together, although I wish they had been longer
I know that you are free from the pain you felt.
I wish I could of healed you, but I did the only thing I could do because I love you so much, and that is let you go.
I will see you again, someday, and we will cross the bridge together.
Until then know that Mommy loves you!"

Jennifer

In my dreams I see your eyes glowing with love and feel you near
I see you in the clouds running free and racing the wind.
In the mirror of my heart I see your eyes looking back at me with all the love
I feel for you. I hear you whisper of the sweet memories that I hold dear
In my dreams you send the colours of the rainbow, so I can see you are happy and near
I still see in your eyes the person you know I could be and each step I take
I try to be that person. Eyes of love glowing in the night bringing peace of heart and healing.
You are the center of my heart and I feel your gentle touches as you ask me to find peace
Until that day of reunion feel my kisses sent to you on the warmth of the sun
My hugs in the colours of the rainbow. My heart whispers till we meet again,
Love for you always my Shady Angel

© J.C. Stewart~*~February 23, 2006.

                        

Did you know how much I loved you when I held you that last time
Was there something else I could have done I had not time to do.
Had I shown you just how happy I was that you were really mine.
Did I ever tell you in this world there would only be one you.

Do you know how sad I was when I had to let you go.
That I cried so many tears for you and still they do not end.
Were there ever times my love for you I somehow failed to show.
Did you know in all this world you were my very closest friend.

As I remember our life together now I pray with all my heart.
That I never failed you in any way and that you always knew.
Tho now you have run on ahead and we are far apart.
My love for you shall always be forever strong and true.

So go in peace and joy my special one to where you can run free.
To where the lovely rainbow ends and love will fill your heart.
Be happy there and know my love is real as you wait for me.
And that one day i will come to you and never we shall part

© ~Kathy Hayes aka Katie~

Had I loved you less
I would have tried to make you stay
Would have closed my eyes to the pain I saw
And ignored it was now “Your Fine Day”

I would have told myself there’s always tomorrow
Held you in my arms and not let you go
Avoided all the signs you were sending to me
And told myself when it was time I would know

But my precious I loved you so much
I had to do what was best for you not me
Even though I knew the agony I would feel
I knew it was time for me to set you free

That this was the last time I’d hold you near
The last time that I could show you my love
I laid by you feeling the softness of your fur
Then the time came for you to go above

I tried to keep you from the pain I felt
Tried to hold back the tears in my eyes
Then when I saw that you were at peace
I clung to you and allowed myself to cry.

© Carol Ross aka Nashoba Ahalaia ~*~ 2006 ~*~

Know I will never leave you – I will forever reside
In the warm places in your memories,
And though you may not see me here at your side
If you are quiet you can still feel and hear me.

I have left this world that for me became a chore
And I am in a place where I am whole and well.
Our love will always bind us, now and evermore,
I wait for you with love greater than I can tell.

When we are together I am content and complete
My love and my joy in us knows no end.
If I could have one day on earth I could repeat
I’d choose the day that you became my friend.

© Candace

Music~~Memory~~


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